Jilted

I find myself barred by both fate and chance.
Can't get up the nerve to ask you to the dance.
Love doesn't matter; it's my fear that restrains me.
Fear of rejection; now, what does that gain me?

It's psychological
It's so illogical
I've sabotaged my life since years ago.
I've lost my sanity
And my humanity
Forgotten things I thought I used to know.

I've waited too long; someone else asked you first
Life feels as if my existence is cursed
I drop to my knees; now I beg and I plead.
My eyes start to water; my heart starts to bleed.

It's psychological
It's so illogical
I've sabotaged my life since years ago.
I've lost my sanity
And my humanity
Forgotten things I thought I used to know.

It wouldn't have mattered if I'd asked you sooner
You'd never go out with such a sad loser.
I can't offer anything, save for my love,
But to one such as you that's not nearly enough.

To die for you would be nothing great,
My death's unimportant, and so it can wait.
I've only one sacrifice left I can give.
And so for you, my love, I've decided to live.